I wouldn’t say that I was much of a music person before the trials of my struggling marriage. However, I have found that playing praise and worship music from various Christian artists in my home usually sets a calm atmosphere. Listening to words that encourage me to trust in the Lord helps me to feel his presence. I find that feeding my soul with a melody of his truth and existence gives me joy and a reason to take my next step. Music has become part of my daily life and food for my soul. 

It was during my separation with my husband (Chad) I found listening to music as a tool to help me during the darkest moments. Most days, I could barely get out of my bed and falling asleep at night usually came with haunting dreams of who my husband was with and what he was doing. There were days and nights that I was utterly alone when my three children were at Daddy’s house. It hurt so bad knowing the reality of being home with mom was depressing but being with Dad was fun. Chad seemed to have no care in the world of the direction we were going or the pain I was feeling. In most of my dreams, I would see Chad and other women laughing at me. I am unable to describe those agonizing visions of those dreams all I can say is he hurt me to my core, ripped out my heart, and those dreams magnified what Chad was putting me through. 

My Co-Worker form the salon and God-loving Friend of mine Elizabeth introduced me to Kim Walker-Smith and her band Jesus Culture. Elizabeth encouraged me to play their music to help me go through the fire. Every time I hear a song come on from their Consumed album, it takes me back to laying in my bed full of tears in that lonely condo the kids, and I had moved to after splitting up with Chad. It also brings me to a place that I want to dance and raise my hands to heaven and sing praises to the King of Kings and Lord of Lords for his goodness, love, and refuge He gave me during those times. I found peace in His presence while the music was feeding my soul. 

You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you. 
Isaiah 26:3 NLT

Are you struggling hearing lies of the enemy over the truth and promises that our Heavenly Father is speaking to you? It’s time to turn up the music! 

I encourage you to:

  1. Turn on praise and worship music throughout your home. Hillsong United is also one of my top favorite bands. You won’t go wrong starting with them. It brings joy to my heart when I see my children sing along because they know the words. It’s almost like the words are embedding onto our hearts.
  2. When you lay your head down at night, ask the Lord to protect your mind and thoughts while you sleep. Tell Him that you desire to see the beauty of what his plans are for you. 
  3. Turn back on that worship music and while you sleep, allow it to play quietly. I did this myself so that as I slept, I was being fed a melody of truth and love. It helped silence the voice of the enemy, and the horrifying dreams became fewer and farther apart. 

2 thoughts on “Turn Up The Music

  1. I am so incredibly thankful that you have a willing spirit to share your heart. Kathy what is so profoundly amazing to me is that GOD choose you to rebuild your family. The changes in you were the plan to rebuild everything and loved ones in your family. This is exactly what is happening now in our family. What you wrote is exactly what I was and still going through. Thank you for transparency and beautiful heart

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